Misc. Thoughts....

...so for some reason the past few days I have had alot of things on my mind...and I thought the best way to get them off would be to blog and maybe get some other people's opinions. Now I know the opinions saying, but this is my blog and it is my way of venting. So I was talking to one of my best friends the other day and she was talking about how frustrated she was with one of our other mutual friends. She is alot closer with this mutual friend than I am so she had known some stuff that had been going on with her that I didn't know. She told me that our friend had been having some hard times and that she had missed work 3 days last week for a Dr. appt. That immediately through up a red flag...because she didn't say she was sick, she just said she went to a Dr. appt...so I hesitated asking scared of what she might say and sure enough it was exactly what I thought...She had gone to have an abortion. She had gone to a clinic out of town and she was only around 5 or 6 weeks pregnant. But as soon as I heard that it broke my heart...I guess all abortions break my heart, but this hit so close to home because this is a person that I thought I knew and that would never do something like this...(Side note: This is NOT anyone that I work with and NOT anyone associated with Faulkner.)

But the sad part is she did it...and now she is just going crazy I feel like. She is drinking alot more and acting ways that she knows she shouldn't. I am just so confused and conflicted on how people can think that abortion is not killing human beings...this baby had a heart beat already...and I don't know, I guess if I were in her situation and had just gotten a huge promotion and I was only 23, maybe it would cross my mind, but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I would not make that decision. And the thing I didn't understand is the daddy said he wanted to marry her and help her with the baby and she still did it. Without even letting his vote count. It just hurts my heart.

Another issue I have been having lately is trust issues! I don't know why, but I have been lacking trust for alot of people in my life and I don't really understand why. I know maybe I am finally to that age where I am starting to understand and know things that I never have known before and maybe its that I am just constantly worried. And i don't want to be that way, in fact I want to be the exact opposite.

I know in Matthew 6:25-34 Jesus says: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

So I am trying really hard not to worry so much and to trust God that he has a plan for me and for me not to worry with it so much and to do the best I can with what he has given me. And I really just think I am getting to that point in my life where I am just worried about everything that has to do with my life, my job, my family, my boyfriend...everything. And its not all bad worry or negative worry, just uncertainty. So any thoughts? Or advice??

Sorry for the random blog, just had alot on my mind!

Valdosta...

...for all that are interested...I am not sure when I am coming to Valdosta bc I have not heard when we are doing Christmas! But regardless, Before Dec. is over I will be down there and bring Nathan for everyone to meet! =) Love you Gin Gin!

Busy past couple of weeks!

So I have neglected the ole blogspot for a week or so...I guess once you get in the hang of doing it alot it kinda feels weird to get out of!! So This may be a bit lengthy but just bare with me!! It will be worth it!!

Mom's Birthday: As most of you already know we surprised mom on her birthday in Trenton for her party! It was great!! she had no clue whatsoever and was so so surprised and it was so much fun!! And the scrapbook went over AMAZINGLY!!! She absolutely loved it!!! By the 2nd page she was in tears and so were we!! But good tears of course!! =) But i can not lack to thank Mrs. Jacki (Nate's mom). She was the backbone in all the scrapbook making and I could not have done it with out her!! She is amazing and I am so blessed to have her in my life!! =)

Aunts, Uncle, and Cousins Birthdays: Yeah yeah so me and Laurie are the bad nieces that didn't blog on those special days....but in our defense...there has been a TON going on in our world!! =) But none the less....they still deserve to be acknowledged!! So Happy Birthday KaKa, GinGin, Uncle Ervin, and Jordan!! I hope you all had the most magnificent birthdays yet!! And I am really looking forward to coming down there soon and seeing all of ya'll!! Love ya'll!!

TRAVELING: Well I have started my weekends full of traveling now. This past weekend I took cornerstone down to Mt. Dora to recruit and it went really well!! cornerstone sang in chapel Friday morning and I had breakfast for all the Jrs. and Srs. so that went over well! After they got done singing the director of the school play came up and gave us 5 free tickets to go see their school play "The Dairy of Anne Frank". I thought it was good but it was kinda hard keeping the guys interested in it so I bribed them with ice cream if we could at least stay til intermission!! So that went over well because they had a baskin robbins and it was GREAT!! I have not had baskin robbins in so SO LONG and it was just what I needed to get through that crazy weekend!! But it was well worth it!! i got 6 applications which is great for those of you that don't really know the world of admissions!! =) for those of you that do you completely understand how well that plays in the numbers game!! Needless to say Keith was pretty happy with me!! =) Sunday Dirt's parents were in town so we ate lunch with them and it was GREAT!! I always love seeing them and they are always so happy to see us...and yes I say us because they always give me as much attention as they do Louise!! And this time they got to meet Nathan which was fun!! =)

CHRISTMAS TIME!!!! I am so so super stoked about Christmas...I can not explain it at all but I just love it!! =) Everything about it....even the cold weather!! =) (And that's saying alot especially since i wear jackets in the summer...I am a bit cold natured!!!) As I type I am listening to Christmas music!! I can not get enough of it!! And I am so jealous of Ashley Peebles!! Not only is she living in England, but they don't celebrate thanksgiving over there so the day after Halloween all Christmas stuff gets put up!! =) HOW STINKIN GREAT WOULD THAT BE?!?! Now I know most of you are saying...WHAT?!?! Skip thanksgiving?? No no silly!! They are still having the big thanksgiving dinner but its just not an actual holiday over there...and honestly that would be great for me!!! =)And for thanksgiving Mom and Dad are coming down here the 24th and 25th for us to have Thanksgiving then going back to Trenton. From there Me and Nate will leave on the 26th and go to his house to celebrate Thanksgiving with his family...I am a little nervous about meeting all the extended family but it will be good! So last night Me an Nate were shopping for some items for my poor pitiful sick sister Laurie, and I came across these super cute Christmas tissues and a REALLY cute Ho Ho Ho blanket that I just knew Laurie would want me to buy!! =) And they have this max chloreseptic spray out that has a special spray top that directly hits your throat and I thought that was soo cool! And that directed spray top is pretty neat because you know when you have the regular spray it gets on your tongue and ends up numbing that and well then its all down hill!!! =) Oh yeah and its mini so it fits in your purse just perfectly!!! Sorry totally got off subject for Christmas!! Anyways back to Christmas!! Another REALLY REALLY exciting Christmas fact...this year for Nate and my's gifts to each other we are flying out to Seattle, WA to see my best friend Taylor and her Husband Blake for the whole week of New Years!! =) I AM SO SO SO EXCITED I CAN HARDLY STAND IT!!! We are going to get to go up into Canada and the space needle and it will just be so nice to spend sometime with Taylor and not have to share her with all her other friends here in Montgomery!!! I miss her sooo much!! =)

Well I think that pretty much sums up my life, for now at least!!! =) Hope it was not too long and boring!! Love ya'll and hopefully over the next few weeks I will have alot to blog about...and I will definitely blog about me meeting all of Nate's extended family!!

It's Mom's Big Day!!!

So I know most of you have already read Laurie and Louise's blogs but I can't be the bad daughter and not write anything!!! My mom is the most amazing woman I have ever met. Not only did she raise 3 AMAZINGLY wonderful and beautiful (and humble :)) daughters, but she has been married for almost 30 years, been an amazing Christian woman, but survived a stroke at the age of 45. I can not tell you how much she has shown me what a little bit of determination and hard work can really acheive! We are all so lucky to have her on our lives and not to mention to have put up with daddy for almost 30 years!! And i want to send a special shout out to Bev Strange...she has been mom's strong hold for a bunch of years now and has really just been amazing to our family!! Thank you so much Bev for everything and we love you more than you will ever know!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMA!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

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