My first experience was with my grandfather in 1999. I was 13 almost 14 and I didn't really understand what all had gone on with granddaddy Garner. I knew he had Cancer and I knew he had lost his battle with that but it wasn't years, and I mean years later till I found out how bad it really was for him. Granddaddy Garner was great. He loved his wife and children and LOVED his grandchildren. He fought a hard battle and my momma was trooper through the whole thing. She and her siblings were there to help Grandma Garner do everything and take care of him. He was a good man and led an amazing life and left us with great memories. I have no doubt he is enjoying his eternal reward.
Then the next closest hit was Papa in March of this year (I know others died in between those but these hit closest to home) and that was so real to me and it was then that I thought I really understood about death. It was real. It was hard. But in the end it was so much better for Papa. He fought a hard battle for a long time and he went peacefully, and left us with wonderful memories to reflect on. Daddy was the only boy and he and his sisters spent as much time as they could down there and helping Nana with everything. I have no doubt Papa and Granddaddy are talking about everything and loving every bit of the reward they both worked so hard for. I thought that had prepared me for death.
Then within the past 2 months a guy that was a year older than me lost his battle with cancer, one of my best friends from college lost her sis/mom to a 9 year battle with breast cancer, and just today a woman that was a great friend of the family finally gained her heavenly reward after a horrible fight with cancer.
Death is real. It is heartbreaking. It is so hard to understand. But I feel like it is surrounding me right now.
It is really hard to grasp the reality of death. I know we all "know" we are going to die but we all get caught up sometimes in living like we don't think we are going to die. My heart is breaking for my sweet Super and Jon and TL and their whole family dealing with the death of Sis. Her faith was amazing and she was the most positive person I have ever met and she loved everyone. Mrs. Barbara Cozart was a wonderful woman. She was "good people" as I would like to refer to people who just were amazing. In the past year or so every time we would see her she would always have a smile on her face even though I knew she was fighting inside. She was just happy to be alive. She was happy to be with her friends and family. But even as happy as these two were they were ready. They knew they had something better to look forward to. So as I sit here with tears in my eyes I am thankful knowing there is something better and that we have the ultimate Healer and Comforter. As hard as it was to lost my grandfathers I can't imagine how hard it was to watch Our Father willingly give His Son to die to save us. As sad as I am today for the loss of these lives on earth I am so thankful they have gained their heavenly reward and that I know I will see them again one day.
P. S. Sorry to make my first blog back so sad and serious just a lot that I needed to get out and everyone doesn't always like to hear someone say all this and I wouldn't be able to say most of it due to tears so just bear with my scrambled thoughts. I will have a sweet fun post coming soon! :)
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
The D word (Death)
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Monday, March 3, 2014
My Sweet Sweet Ellie
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Friday, February 21, 2014
Words Matter
So things have been stressful the past couple of months. So extremely stressful! I have felt like I was on a roller coaster of emotions, and before you ask, NO I am not pregnant I can assure you! :) I have just felt like everything in my life has been a bit more stressful that I have been used to! I have had a lot of people ask if I was ok or why I seem so sad recently and honestly I just have felt in a valley. So I decided that I was just going to get out of regardless of what it took! But in the midst of my bad months weeks days I have been really hateful and hurtful with my words. It is my downfall big time! And trust me I am ever so gently reminded by my loving sisters that I need to work on it. So I say all that to say this post was on one of the blogs I follow and I thought it couldn't hit any closer to home.
Here is the link to read her blog:
Words Matter
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Thursday, November 21, 2013
Vacation is sooooo close!
Today has been better.....still exhausted but better :) All I can keep thinking is that I have one more day of work after today....ONE MORE DAY!!!! And then I will have A FULL WEEK OFF!!!! A FULL WEEK PEOPLE!!! I just absolutely can't wait!!! I am going to have to deep clean some but I can assure you that Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I am going to relax!!!! I am so excited about it! I have been talking with Louise and I think we may try to go to Birmingham on Tuesday and get the Pioneer Woman to sign our new cookbooks :) Whoop whoop! And do some Christmas Shopping! I am so excited about that! Today I am so thankful for Mo, one of our basketball guys here at school. I have been his advisor for the past 2 years and we have worked hard to get all of his classes in so that we could get him graduated on time. He is set to graduate in May and I could not be prouder of him and his hard work! He is a true testament of why I love my job and how thankful I am to work with students who bless me daily!
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Wednesday, November 20, 2013
1 year. 5 months. 6 days.
That is exactly how long it has been since I blogged. Yes I realize that's a while and I will never in a million years be able to go back through and catch everyone up on my life but honestly you haven't missed a whole lot. Except pictures of my niece and nephews. :)
I debated on starting another private blog just so I can hash out how I feel without being judged but then I remembered that:
- Not a whole lot of people read my blog......
- I am an open book, let's be honest, and I don't hide my emotions so good.....so I just figured I can put it all out there on the table!
- So here goes nothing......
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Thursday, June 14, 2012
Ellie's 1st weekend alone with her Aunts (And Morgan and Michelle :))
Let the weekend of Ellie and her Aunts Begin! (Laurie wasn't off work yet!! :)) |
First stop on our list was Burger King so Morgan and Ellie could play :) |
Then to La's house we went to take a bath in her BIG bath tub!! |
Then it was on to Elouise's and Dirt's house to have a slumber party with Morgan and Michelle!!! :) |
In the morning mo decided to get up and come watch Ramona and Beezus while we waiting for the sleepy heads to get up....Michelle and Ellie :) |
Sleepy head finally arose! :) 8:30 am this child slept til! :) |
On to the Farmer's Market we go! |
And as we were heading to the pool someone crashed! So we went to make us a picnic lunch at Michelle's and little princess slept in the car! :) |
Ellie and Morgan living the good life in the pool!!! :) |
Baby Piper came to swim too! :) And She absolutely loved the water!! That was her first time in a pool and she kept dunking her head!! :) |
And Ellie loved swimming with Baby Piper! |
Can you tell Ellie LOVES the swimming pool?!?!? |
Then she needed to get out and do the chicken dance! :) |
And Back to swimming!!! :) Really she loved it!! In her little inter tube she could do whatever she wanted!! |
Seriously could she be any cuter?!??! |
Next stop on our list was the nail salon....every girl needs a good mani/pedi! And Ellie loved hers! She sat so still while the woman was painting her toes!! |
Well and as you can tell this sweet little girl was worn out!! And so was Ellie, Leigh Leigh, La, and Michelle!! |
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Tuesday, May 29, 2012
New Job!!!
Well I am so excited to finally be able to officially announce that I have a new job starting June 1st! I am moving into the Student Success department here at Faulkner and will be a Professional Advisor and starting teaching some in the fall! I am so nervous about starting to teach but I am so excited about the doors that hopefully can be opened with that opportunity!! I know I have, along with many others, prayed about this decision and I am so excited to be moving into a job that will allow me to advance and that will be something I can work with when Nathan and I decide to start a family! Again He has blessed me with more than I deserve but I am so thankful!! Thanks again to everyone who was praying for me! Your prayers and thoughts mean more than each of you will ever know! :)
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